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DPU (delayed pressure urticaria).   Any time I apply the minimum pressure to any part of my body, a hive or swelling occurs.  Hives appear on my feet when I wear heels ,dance ,or on my thighs/butt when I ride a bike.   Exercising can also be a problem when dealing with DPU.  Lifting weights and push-ups are out of the question.  They are guaranteed hive developers. Sometimes I become a hostage in my own home because I am afraid I will cause hives by pressure from an activity or my appearance may be less attractive due to a big fat lip or swollen eyes.  This is extreme  isolation.

Although it’s hard not to complain about my hives and swelling; I am trying my best to be grateful and to consider it a blessing. Blessings are not always advantageous but they also come in forms that are unfavorable. All in all we must take the good with the bad and be grateful for both. I can’t allow this one thing to determine my happiness and outlook on life. Sometimes we have to take things in our life that appear negative and transpose them to be beneficial. So my goal is to not use my hives as a crunch or plague but something that I thank GOD for along with my many countless blessings.

Fat Girl

Last night I made a trip to the gym with my husband , Justin and his mom. I spent an hour doing cardio on machines like the bike and elliptical.  It felt good leaving the gym and it was something I hadn’t done in a while.  I have gone in the last two years from being a very fit person who exercised 3-5 days a week to not exercising at all.  My lack of activity is contributed to getting hives anytime I do anything excessive or with weights.  This has instilled a fear in me. I should have skip weights because by the end of the night my right hand was 3 times its size. I thought it was going to bust open. Not to mention that the pain was out of this world.

Not to forget the next morning My knee is so swollen that I can’t extend it straight. How will I make it today?  All day long I walked as if I had broken my foot. So what does this mean for me.  No work outs?  Being a fat girl is not an option and trust me that I have gained at least 25 lbs within the past two years; mainly contributed to no exercise.  If I walk I can’t walk too long because I will get hives on my feet and they will swell.  What to do?  I am so desperate and tired of fighting this battle.  I just want to be normal that’s all; well a skinny normal.